In July of this year, my husband took his own life. I am now a widow and this is my blog about how I am coping and the things that come up along the way. I hope to engage others who "get it" in conversation.
I am not a doctor, I am not a medical professional. I am just a person who suffered a horrible tragedy and feel like maybe I can help others who are going through a similar difficult time have a space to communicate with each other.
My husband of nearly twenty years took his own life earlier this year. He did it right in front of me. I will never be the same person as I was before that moment ever again.
The questions at the beginning were almost all relatively the same with variations of the general sentiment "I never saw it coming, how could this happen?"
If you are the surviving spouse of a suicide, most likely you are NOT surprised at the same time as the most shocked you've ever been in your whole life. People who have not been through this... They will never quite be able to grasp what it feels like. Some try, others don't. At the end of the day, intent matters, and we are grieving. It's messy.
I want to create a space where I can dump out the crap I am feeling and get a conversation started with other people who have context.
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